gatesgirl88's Journals on Buzznet http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Goodbye.]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/3778101/goodbye/ Buzznet gatesgirl88 2009-02-20T19:58:00Z <![CDATA[Guess what?]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/586091/guess-what/ Today.

Is.

My.

Birthday!.

Oh yes.

I'm a big 19 years old now.

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]]> Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-07-10T19:27:00Z <![CDATA[READ THIS]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/171241/read-this/ So basically...
I have no real motivation for writing anymore. I dunno what happened. I'm just not in the mood to write lately.
That means: story is on hold indefinitely.
So don't ask me constantly when I'm gonna post more.
I won't reply. Sorry. Because I do not know when the story is coming back.
(Ashley, you and Jenny can ask all you want though. You two are the only ones though.)

]]> Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-05-07T08:41:00Z <![CDATA[It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does Pt 22]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/162075/hard-tell-mind-stop-loving/ As soon as Brian and I get home, I head right for the bedroom.
”Are you ok?” Brian asks, sitting on the edge of the bed.
”Just tired.” I reply.
”You sure? You seem a little off.” He says brushing a few stray hairs out of my eyes.
”Just tired Bri. I promise.” I reply. He smiles and lies down beside me.
”I believe you baby.” He says wrapping his arms around me.

A few hours later, I’m wide awake and headed for the bathroom.
”Michelle? You ok in there?” Brian says, knocking on the bathroom door.
”Fine.” I manage to choke out. I can hear him picking the lock on the door. I lean against the cabinet and hug my knees to chest. After a few more seconds, I hear the lock click and he opens the door.
”Whats wrong?” He asks softly, sitting in the floor beside me and pulling me to him.
”I’m pregnant.” I whisper and break down again.
”Shh. It’s ok baby.” He says, stroking my hair as I cry into his tshirt.
”No its not.” I whisper.
”We’re gonna be ok this time. No matter what happens. I promise.” He says, kissing my forehead.
We sit there for what seems like hours. Me crying and him stroking my hair and telling me everything is going to be ok. The next thing I know, he’s carrying me back to bed.
”Wha…” I mumble.
”You fell asleep in my lap.” He says, gently lying me on the bed. He sits on the edge of the bed and smiles at me.
”I’m scared Brian.” I whisper.
”Me too. But I promise. Everything is going to be ok.”


Two Weeks Later.
”You’re WHAT?!” Jimmy almost yells.
”Jimmy, chill out.” I say.
”I’m not gonna chill out! Last time this happened…HE left you.” He says, pointing at Brian who has his head down.
”I thought we were past this…” I say.

“Sis, I’m sorry. I just don’t trust him. Not after last time.”
”Jimmy! Thins are gonna be different this time.” I feel myself getting angry. I stand up in front of my brother, trying to get in his face. Which is impossible. He’s a foot taller than me.
”Michelle.” Brian says, getting up and standing by my side, “calm down.”  I look up at him and his worried expression and sit back down. Jimmy goes back to where he was sitting, and Brian sits by me. None of us say anything for a few minutes, until Ashley comes walking into the room with a glass of water in her hand. She hands in to me.
”Thanks.” I reply, sipping it. Brian rubs my back. I glare at my brother.
”I can’t believe you!” Ashley says to him, then walks off. Jimmy lets out an annoyed sounding sigh.
”So much for trying to share good news with my brother.” I say, sitting the glass on the coffee table and getting up. Brian quietly gets up and follows me out the door.
Brian slams the car door and cranks it up, pulling out of Jimmy’s driveway.
”Brian calm down. You’re gonna have a wreck.” I whisper. He glances over at me and sighs.
”I’m sorry baby.” He says and slows down quite a bit to a normal speed.
”Its ok. You’re upset.” I reply. He sighs heavily and keeps his eyes on the road.

”I’d love to know what I did to your brother to piss him off so bad.” Brian says, throwing the sheets back on the bed and climbing in. I lay down beside him, and he pulls the covers up over both of us.
”He’s afraid that this is all going to be a repeat of last time.” I reply.
”What the fuck does he know? Things are different now.” Brian says wrapping his arms around me.
”I know they are Bri. But he just doesn’t want to believe that you’ve changed.”
”Are you siding with him?” Brian questions.
”No. Why would I side with him? I know things aren’t gonna be like they were last time babe.” I reply. He kisses my forehead.
”He needs to get the fuck over it.” Brian says. I laugh.
”I know.”
”Things are going to be so much better this time. I’m gonna stay with you Michelle, no matter what happens. No more being stupid and running off. None of that bullshit. Not this time. I’m gonna stay with my girl.” Brian whispers and kisses me.
”I love you Brian.”
”I love you too.”

]]> avenged sevenfold johnny christ m. shadows synyster gates the rev zacky vengeance Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-04-23T20:53:00Z <![CDATA[It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does Pt 21]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/156397/hard-tell-mind-stop-loving/ We pay and head up to the maternity ward waiting room, where we find everybody waiting.
”Any news?” I ask Ashley.
”She’s about to pop it out!” Johnny exclaims before Ashley can even open her mouth. Ashley and I both crack up at Johnny.
”What? She is!” He says.
”Johnny…you can be so dumb sometimes.” Zacky says shaking his head.
”Yeah, they said it’s going pretty quickly when they kicked us out of her room. So, any minute now I suppose.” Ashley finally says.
”That’s good.” I reply. Brian and I sit in the floor because everybody else has taken up all the seats. Brian puts an arm around my shoulder as I lay my head on his shoulder.
”You know, I’m glad you two worked everything out.” Jimmy says to us. I smile a little at my brother.
”I am too.” I reply. Just then, Zacky busts in the room.
”It’s a boy!!” He shouts. We all jump up at once.
”When can we see her?” Ashley asks.
”In a few minutes. They’re getting the baby and her cleaned up and…stuff.” He says making a grossed out face.
”Ew.” Ashley says. I shudder.
”Wait, neither of you have had kids, how do you know?”
”We’ve heard stories Zacky.” I reply.
”Ohh.” He says, still beaming.
”What did you name him?” Matt asks.
”Brody James Baker.” Zacky says.
”Aww.” Ashley and I say together. Brian puts his arms around my waist and rests his chin on my shoulder.
”I’m gonna go check on her. I’ll come get you guys in a few minutes!” Zacky says before dashing off to Jenny’s room again.  
”Think he’s excited?” Johnny asks laughing.
”Maybe just a little.” Matt says.
”You’d be excited too if you and your girl were gonna have a baby.” Brian says, then gets quiet.
”It’s ok Bri.” I whisper and kiss him on the cheek.
”I know, I just…you know.” He says. I nod.
”C’mon, you guys can see her now.” Zacky says, popping back in the room. We all file out of the waiting room and toward Jenny’s room. We get strange looks from  few people in a different waiting room. Johnny waves at them all.
”Hey!” Jenny says as we all file in her room. She’s holding a little wad of wiggling blankets.
”How ya feeling?” Ashley asks.
”Better now.” She says laughing.
”Was it really bad?” Ashley asks.
”Eh, it was ok. Fast.”
”I thought babies took their time.” Zacky says.
”I did too.” Jenny says. Zacky leans down and kisses her.
”I guess he was just excited to meet us!” Johnny exclaims.
”Yeah. Especially me.” Matt says smirking.
”Cocky much Shads?” Jenny asks. He smiles at her.
We all hang around Jenny’s hospital room for an hour or so just talking and everybody taking turns holding Brody. I smile watching Brian holding little Brody. Matt gently nudges me in the arm.
”Hmm?” I say quietly.
He nods toward Brian and smiles, “I think he’s ready.”
I just smile.
”Maybe we should go now…” Ashley whispers to us. Jenny has fallen asleep. And Zacky looks like he wants to sleep real bad.
”Yeah, it is getting late.” Jimmy says.
Brian hands Brody to Zacky and we all say goodbye and head out toward the parking deck.
”I have never ever seen Zacky that happy before.” Ashley says.
”Nope.” Matt says.
” Guys wanna go party?!” Jimmy exclaims.
”YEAH!” Johnny exclaims. Brian looks down at me.
”I’m kinda tired…” I whisper.
”Maybe next time guys.” Brian says to them.
”Well, I’m game.” Matt says.
We all say our goodbyes and head to our cars and toward our respective destinations.

]]> avenged sevenfold johnny christ m. shadows synyster gates the rev zacky vengeance Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-04-14T22:07:02Z <![CDATA[It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does Pt 20]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/152258/hard-tell-mind-stop-loving/ Two Months Later.
”Hello? She what? Labor? Hospital. Ok, we’re on the way.” Brian says, frantically into his cell phone.
”What is it baby?” I ask, a little worried.
”Jenny is gonna have the baby!” He almost shouts. When did he get all excited about other people having babies?
”Now?!” I ask.
”Yeah!” He says. I jump up and run to the bedroom, grabbing my shoes and bag.
”C’mon Bri! We gotta go to the hospital!” I exclaim. Wait, when did I get so excited about this? I smile a little to myself.
”Ready?” Brian asks, calmer now.
”Mmhmm.” I reply. He kisses my forehead as we walk down the driveway to the car.
”This is exciting.” Brian says as we get on the freeway.
”It is.” I reply, looking out the window. I suddenly don’t feel too great.
Someone goes blazing past us, with their horn blaring. I notice the car immediately. It’s Jimmy and Ashley. Brian laughs a little.
”Guess they’re excited too.” He says.
”Or that’s just how my brother drives.” I reply. He laughs again.
”That is very true.”
”I’m surprised he isn’t dead yet with the way he drives.” I say, still looking out the window.
”Have you ever seen you drive?” Brian asks, laughing.
”I’m a total asshole when I drive.” I say. He laughs again.
We get off at the hospital exit and quickly make our way to the parking deck.
Brian parks the car and we start to get out when his cell phone rings.
”Whats up? Oh. Alright. Well, we’ll hang out in the waiting room then. Yeah, Jimmy and Ashley are on their way up. Mmhmm. What do you think? Alright, we’re on the way up now. Parking deck. Yeah. Ok, see ya in a few.” He hangs up his phone.
”Who was that?”
”Matt. He said that Jenny doesn’t want anybody in the room with her besides Zacky.” He says, intertwining his fingers with mine.
”Ohh. Know what we should do?” I ask.

“Have sex in a dark corner of this parking deck?”
”Brian. No. Go to the gift shop and get Jenny a present.” I say.
”Good idea babe.” He says as we walk through the doors of the hospital and start looking for the gift shop.
”Look at this!” I exclaim as we walk into the gift shop and the little baby outfits.
”Those are cute.” Brian says, smiling at me. I pick one up and inspect it closer. It said “Troublemaker” on the front in bright letters. And in smaller print under that it said “just like my daddy”. I hear Brian giggle behind me.
”Get that. It’s so the truth.”
”Isn’t it though?” I reply, smiling. He wraps an arm around my waist as we keep looking at the various outfits on the shelves.  
”This one is cute too.” Brian says, picking up a different outfit.
”I like it.” I say, looking at it.
”We’ll get this one too!” He says, smiling at me.
”Lets get Jenny some flowers.” I say, pointing to a few bouquets across the shop.
”Alright.” Brian says, ”And we’ll get Jimmy a bottle of Jack.”
”He’ll love that.” I reply.
”Then it’s settled. Lets go pay.” Brian says, walking toward the register.

]]> avenged sevenfold johnny christ m. shadows synyster gates the rev zacky vengeance Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-04-08T22:02:40Z <![CDATA[Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does Pt 19]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/144738/hard-tell-mind-stop-loving/ “Excited?” Jenny asks Ashley. We’re standing in a back room of the church, and she’s walking around in circles.
”How many more times are you gonna ask me that?” Ashley asks.
”Until we have to go stand and be bridesmaids.” She replies
”Here.” I say to Ashley, handing her a glass. She takes a sip.
”Ew, what is that?” She asks, making a face.
”Um, Sprite and Jack.” I reply.
”Where did you find this?”
”Zacky gave it to me. Said it would calm your nerves” I reply.
”Jenny, your man is an idiot. Sprite and Jack?”
”He likes it.” Jenny replies shrugging.
”Gross.” She says, and downs the drink.
”If it’s so gross, why’d you just drink the whole thing?” I ask.
”Because. It’ll calm my nerves.” Ashley replies, causing Jenny and I both to crack up.
”Anyway. Enough about Ashley. Let me see that rock again!” Jenny says, grabbing my hand and inspecting it.
” Didn’t you guys see it earlier?” I ask.
”Yeah, but we wanna see again.” Ashley says walking over.
”So, when are you two gonna get married?” Jenny asks.
”After you and Zacky.” I say. Ashley smiles.
”I hate you, you know that, right?” Jenny says. We all three start giggling.
After a few minutes we calm down and sit around wordlessly. Then we hear footsteps coming.
”Michelle?” Brian says, gently knocking on the door of the room we’re in.
”Time to go?” I ask.
”Mmhmm.” He replies. Jenny and I both hug Ashley and make our way out the door.
”Well, don’t you two look amazing!” Brian says, linking arms with both Jenny and I.
”Brian!” Jenny groans.
”What? You look good.” He says.
”I’m 7 months pregnant!” Jenny exclaims.
”But you’re still beautiful.” Zacky says, walking up behind us and linking arms with Jenny, joining our wall of people.
We break apart as we walk to the front doors of the church, and walk inside. Brian and I together, of course. And then Zacky and Jenny. I looked up at my brother standing at the end of the aisle. He looked relaxed, surprisingly. He smiled at Brian and I. I felt myself turn a light shade of pink. I looked up at Brian, and suddenly, I felt tingly. A good kind of tingly.

 

 

“I’m so tired.” I sigh as Brian unlocks the front door to our house. I’m standing behind him, heels in hand. My feet are killing me. We’re just now getting in from Ashley and Jimmy’s wedding reception. And it’s 3 a.m.
”Aw, c’mere baby.” Brian says, pulling me to him and picking me up carefully.
I wrap my arms around his neck and lay my head on his shoulder.
”Comfy?” He asks, smiling at me.
”Mmhmm” I whisper. He kisses my forehead and carefully walks up the stairs to our bedroom.
”C’mon, lets get out of these clothes and into bed baby.” He whispers, carefully laying me on the bed. I nod sleepily and sit up.
”Unzip me?” I ask. He smiles and does so. I carefully take off my dress and put it back on the hanger and hang in on the closet door. He smiles at me, causing me to blush, as he starts to take off his tie.
”Brian?” I say, laying down on the bed.
”Hmm?” He asks.
”I don’t think I’m ready for bed yet…”

]]> avenged sevenfold johnny christ m. shadows synyster gates the rev zacky vengeance Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-03-28T18:43:58Z <![CDATA[Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does Pt 18]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/141973/hard-tell-mind-stop-loving/ ”Ok, I gotta calm down…” Ashley say, pacing around the salon.
”Do you want me to do your hair or not?” I ask. Jenny looks up from her magazine and laughs.
”Yes!” She says, throwing her arms up in the air and sitting down in a chair.
”Nervous?” Jenny asks.
”Shut up.” Ashley replies. Jenny and I both laugh as I start to work on Ashley’s hair.
”Why am I nervous now? That’s just dumb.” Ashley says.
”You realized that you’re getting married to The Rev maybe?” Jenny asks.
”Goddamn it Jenny.” Ashley says. I laugh.
”Jenny, grab a Red Bull out of the fridge for me?” I ask. She nods and brings a can over. I open it and hand it to Ashley.
”Chill the fuck out girl.” I say. She laughs and sips at the drink.
”Thank you.” I say, and go back to her hair.
”I’ve never been this nervous in my whole damn life.” Ashley says after a while.
”Wait until you get pregnant…” Jenny says, picking up another magazine.
”Stop!” Ashley yells suddenly.
”What?!” I ask.
”Let me see your hand.” She demands. Jenny looks up from her magazine. I hold out my hand.
”When the fuck did you get this?” She asks.
”Um…yesterday.” I reply.
”WHAT?!” Jenny and her both exclaim. Jenny waddles over to where we are as fast as she can, which makes Ashley laugh.
”You look like a penguin.” She says. Jenny swats her arm.
”You just wait!” She says. They both stare at my hand.
”Wow.” Jenny says.
”It’s gorgeous.” Ashley says.
”Now…don’t you think you should thank a couple of people?” Jenny asks.
”Who are they and why would I thank them?”
”Us. For dragging you to the bar on your birthday.” Ashley says.
”Guys…now is not the time for mush!” I say, and go back to work on Ashley’s hair.  

”Ok, so we have Jimmy in a secure location. He can’t run away.” Brian says walking in with Zacky as I’m finishing up Jenny’s hair.
”Good” Ashley says, sounding relived.
”Yeah, we left him with Matt and Johnny.” Zacky says, planting a cheek on Jenny’s forehead.
”Oh great..” Ashley sighs, “He’s gonna show up drunk…”
”No he isn’t.” Jenny says.
”I hope not.” Ashley says, laughing a little.
”Ok, all done.” I say to Jenny as she gets up and walks over to Zacky. He wraps his arms around her protectively. Brian glances at the two of them and looks at me and smiles.
”They’re cute together.” He whispers to me. I smile at him and nod.
”How long until I can see Jimmy?” Ashley asks, looking at the clock.
”Um, four more hours.” Jenny replies. Ashley groans.
”C’mon, it can’t be that bad, can it? You’ve been away from him before.” Zacky says.
”Yeah, but now that she is being forced to stay away from him, she really wants to see him.” Jenny says. Ashley laughs a little.
”This wedding stuff sucks sometimes.” She says.
”Lets go back to our house.” Brian offers.
”Anything to keep her busy.” Zacky says, laughing slightly as Jenny and Ashley both punch him in the arm.
”Shut up Baker.” Ashley mutters as we walk out of the salon.

]]> avenged sevenfold johnny christ m. shadows synyster gates the rev zacky vengeance Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-03-24T21:16:10Z <![CDATA[Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does Pt 17]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/139312/hard-tell-mind-stop-loving/ ”You gotta what?” Brian asks me later that night.
”Wear a corset under my bridesmaid dress.” I reply.
”Why? You’re not fat or anything…”
”No. But they didn’t have the dress Ashley picked out in my size. So we’re improvising. Buying the next size down and I’m wearing a corset.” I reply.
”Wait…I know I know what a corset is, but refresh my memory.” He says. I hand him the bag.
”This does come with a matching thong and garter and all that, right?” He asks soon as he takes it out of the bag.
”BRIAN!” I squeal.
”What?!” He asks, confused.
”Nothing.” I reply, shaking my head.
He holds the corset up to himself and dances around.
”I’m gonna get some action! I’m gonna get some action!” He sings as he continues dancing around with the corset.
”Not with that you aren’t.” I reply.
”Aw. But with what?” He asks, making a sad little face.
”With this.” I reply handing him another bag.
”Hot damn!” He almost yells, and runs off toward the bedroom.
”Where are you going?” I ask, following him.
”In here. To do this.” He replies and jumps on the bed.
”When ya gonna wear this for me?”He asks, flopping down on the bed.

“Not tonight.” I reply lying down beside him.
”Aw why not?!”
”I’m too tired. I’ve been gone all day!”  I exclaim.
”Oh. Too tired to fix dinner?” He asks.
”Yeah. But I’m not too tired to go pick up some Chinese.” I reply.
”Good!” He says getting up.
”I want…” He starts off.

“Nope. You can call it in. And go with me to pick it up.” I interrupt him.
”I was gonna go anyway. You said you’re tired. Wanna ride with me?”
”Ok Bri.” I reply and get up, grabbing my coat.

 

Things start going pretty good from then on. Ashley is doing the normal freaking out about her wedding and what have you. Jimmy is just trying to avoid her as much as possible when she goes into freak out mode, because he usually winds up having to do “pointless wedding bullshit” as he calls it.
Zacky and Jenny…well, everybody likes to rip on them about when they’re gonna get married. And Jenny, she likes to go to Babies R Us “every damn day”, according to Zacky. But he’s getting real excited about the baby too. We can ALL tell.
Brian and I, well, we’re just us I guess you could say.

 

“You don’t smoke.” Brian says, walking in from the bathroom with a towel around his waist, and one draped over his head.
”I do sometimes.” I reply.
”Sometimes being after a really good fuck?” He asks, smirking.
”No. Only after slightly ok fucks.” I smirk back.
”I really hate you sometimes.” He says, digging a pair of boxers out of a drawer.
”No you don’t. If you hated me, I wouldn’t have this…” I reply, holding up my left hand.
”Very true.” He says, sitting on the bed beside me.
”Don’t you…have a wedding to get ready for?” He asks, as I make myself comfortable.
”The wedding isn’t until 7 tonight. And we don’t have to be at the church until 6. It’s 10 right now.” I reply.
”Good point.”
”I know.” I reply, getting up.
”Where are you going?” He asks.
”Shower.” I say, disappearing into the bathroom.

 

]]> avenged sevenfold johnny christ m. shadows synyster gates the rev zacky vengeance Buzznet gatesgirl88 2007-03-20T20:15:02Z <![CDATA[Small favor.]]> http://gatesgirl88.buzznet.com/user/journal/121367/small-favor/ Ok. So I'm gonna ask you guys for a small favor.

Go here: www.freewebs.com/thecaveofwonders

K?
K.

Then you look on the left side of the page and click on "The Ad Page"

K?
K.

Then you'll see two ad's there.  
Click on both of those ads.
Alot.
And I mean alot.

K, thanks.

You guys are the best.

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